something not nice happened today.
was friggin pissed.
over something stupid which made us flare up.
kns.its really childish lor.to think back.
and i dont think that someone who has greater 'powerr' talks to u and u feel extremely happy abt it.kinda lame lor.
urghs.i dunno.thinking that this is the last yr, probably things would be better.
who knew.i think its turning the other way round.
was really frustrated abt it lor.
but i continued to bottle it up.
got to know that one best friend of mine badmouthed me.
made other good friends of mine dislike me.
thats blardy stupid.
perharps its kinda long ago.but wadeva.i seriously dont give a damn.
and.
wads the problem with me now?
is there anything wrong mixing with ppl from 5a now?
they always nvr fail to cheer me up. esp my brothers.
even when they dont even noe im feeling down.
but i've got cliques there now.
perharps u two dont understand wads my stand.
dun understand then dun say anything can?
im always left out cos ch hardly comes.
so obviously i'll not go back or hang out with u all lar.
but why cant u two understand as how much the other two understands?
its really..hais.heartbreaking.
i really hate.esp when it involves me.
crap.

abit outrageous lar.
just cant seem to understand why like that lor.
mood wasnt right today.
dunno why darl showed me attitude at that point of time.
was seriously friggin pissed off.
couldnt cry in the workshop.so i went to bball court.
watched the rest play bball.calm down a lil.
then ran back to workshop cos ppl said mr lau coming.
errpp.lame.
then once again.attitude me again.
wahh.i seriously cannot tahan liao lors.
then the ppl on the right hand side super anti becos of the stuffs i mentioned on top.
then went to wash my face and went to pee.
kinda calm down again.then walked backk.
that point of time was really heartbreaking cann.
suddenly i missed lau and jasmine.
then sway sway darl saw.
qns started bombarding me.
sighhhs.then i suppose he knew it involves him.but didnt noe it also involves the other girls.
then things started to change lar.
mood swang back to another angle.
but the other angle was still stuck there.
dunno when will swing back lar.

just a week b4 exams thing kinda stuff happen.
blardy dumb and i hate it.
im tired and exhausted of all this.
sighhhs.
why.
why life like thatt...
sian lor.

boring.

recaps.

10/04
probably nothing much.just the same.
ip coaching for chinese.
SIANNNS.
but wad to do.Os are like er.less than 1 month?
yeahhs.
and im still blogging.
dangs.how smart.hahas.

11/04
cant remember.
HA.
but i think we were suppose to have dnt ip coaching.
but in the end, madam didnt allow us to go in or something..
yeahhs,

12/04
cant remember.
LOL
errrr.chem ip coaching!
perharps i can call it revision instead.
eventually, shasi went thro like from the beginning..
which i think its kinda gd lar.
esp the mole concept thingy.haas.yeppps.

13/04
shengwei's bday. LOL
nearly got chopped by someone.
dun bother to mention who.HAHA.
alrite.
errr.skipped tuition.
and went to church instead.
shadow play was cool. (:
i like.haas.
but message..its like i heard it before.so it kinda tiring sitting there.
nearly dozed off. =P

14/04
holidayy!
suppose to be in church before 9am.
but i overslept.
hahahas.suppose to meet (: at 8.45.
so late lar.
meet yfers also late.hahas.
whoops.
anyway, kayaking was okay.
i LOVE that rough weather.
the waves were bloody strong.
kayak halfway out and it started raining darn HEAVILY.
so we were somehow caught in the rain for a while.
friggin cool!
but ya lar.it was dangerous.
had a flashback from my dream.
kinda weird.but i didnt remember wad the dream was abt.
thank God nth happened to us.
sorry darl.i didnt keep my promise by keeping myself out of danger.
sighhs.
didnt join them for bbq.
was dead tired.besides, i had a headache.so yeahs.

15/04
comm meeting.
at 10am
sighhs.was really tired.but bo bian.still have to go.
settled schedule for the next 3 months already.
so yeahs.
after that rushed home changed and went out to town with (:
shared prawn mee from food republic. YUMMM!
i sooo love the chilli.hahas.alrite.madd.
err.then meet up with yenle eric zg blah blah blah'
went to borders.
was SOOOO tempted to buy books.
had them in my hands.but in the end i put them back in the shelves.
sighhs.
nvms.i shall buy them some other day.
after that stone,ate,drank in BK.
thenn went off to cini.
e-max? yeahs.watched corpse bride while the others played cs wildly.
kinda scary with all the shouting and stuffs.
ahhas.
rite.
so reached home around 10 plus.
this time my parents really did scold.
diee.i can hardly go town now lar.
oh wells.

16/04
easter sundayyy!
piano time.
was really really scared.
my hands were shaking even during rehearsal.
sighhs.dunno wads wrong.its not the first time im playing like that.
but when it came to the actual performance, the kids did well.
while i shook horribly, until the line stanza.i stopped shaking.
sighs.not gd.
but i think its gonna be the last time im playing for kids choir.
gonna concentrate on adults choir instead.hahas.
i miss alto! :D

well yeah.
today.
nothing much.
lessons as usual.
slept during ip coaching.
but was more refreshed after sleeping.
hahahas.then i concentrated. LOL
oh well.
gonna study now.
ciaoooo!

omg.
mid yr is like zooming towards me.
how scary.
and i friggingly failed my maths paper1 for tuition.
HA~ expected.
did only 11 qns outta 26.and that 11 qns are like bullshits.
heck.im dying can.

sighs.
i've got tonnes of hw NOT completed yet.
hist.eng.maths.chinese bao zhang bao dao.chem.
all due tmr.
kns.
now i noe why its monday are monday blues.
BIG BIG SIGHHHHH-
crazily busy these few wks lars.
chinese ip coaching tmr.
): im tiredd of sch life.

i love pool!
i think yenle super pro.
clap clap.
hahas.its good to pair with her. =D
and i totally hate the wad zhong zi mi mah game.
i hate that stupid game ever since primary sch.
after yesterday, i think i hate it even more. RAHHS.
my nose was nearly broken.hahas.
maybe not that serious lar.
but after my nose got hit, tears were in my eyes man.
multicoloured nugguets..tsk.
wadeva.yesterday was the most humiliating day of my entire 16 yrs of living on this earth.
): u guys made me lose my first BLAH'
so sadddd! )))):
oh well.im burning.hahas.
nearly got scolding from my parents.
suppose to reach hm at 9.
so i rushed, left the rest and reached hm at 9plus.
phewww.thank goodness nth happened.

sigh.i like the grand piano sound. =D
hhas.had practice for the kids choir today.
abit weird playing on grand piano.
got to really press the pedal for the note to sustain.
tough.but sigh.
next wk is the presentation. ):
stage fright.

7.45pm now!
shall go do my work already.
ciao!