well well.
sch's reopened.
and i dont really look forward to it.
but what can i do? but to fact the fact that im still a student.
worse, a O level candidate.
wow.in a few months time, its the dropping of bombs and throwing all the stuffs that i learnt.like N levels i suppose.
yeah.

not alot of hws now.
but i expect more and more.
cos i dont wanna be here blogging and stuffs.
i wanna start mugging like hell.
and stuff info inside my brains.
i dont care if i 'si bei' as in die memorising? lol.
as long as it makes a difference in my results.

had a talk with darl yesterday.
which probably made me more clear abt stuffs.
truely, i feel like im a dumbo.
mesmorized by everything and i kinda left him out in my life.
hang out with dajie.ahkorr.xiaodi and xiaomei.
oh and plus deep and sean.
these people mugged with me.crapped with me.
which, i admit, made me forget abt darl.
guilt-riddenn.
played pool with xiaodi.xiaomei and deep.
again, neglected darl's sms and played until we finished then i msged back.
a lil wrong concept of wad im suppose to do..
but well. i got things clear now.
i realised and known things which have been kept in the dark for the past few yrs.
thus, im not the only one who is 'chi qing' (:
yayy-ness.tho i think its a lil silly of darl to do that last time.
nevertheless, he still makes me glad as ever(: <33s

got to know a case of a girl passing away from sch.
was shocked.but glad.
shocked because it was so sudden.saw a few girl's blog.
gave me the impression that this girl was a cheerful and ...i dunno.
just like an angel u see. the guai but a girl everyone would love.
glad because she's a child of God.
thus, no more pain and sufferings(: but, will be always missed by her dear friends in schh.
actually heard abt this girl last yr i think.
but didnt know who.
its a pity.. such a gentle young girl, just gone like that..
life's short.very short.
u'll nvr noe wads gonna happen the next moment.
but through her friend's blog, it encourages me.
she shared and drew unbelievers to God.
really, she didnt bother abt the pain the needles and everything.
but just putting her trust in the Lord..
sighhs. she'll be missed.really missed.

well.im gonna press onn.
gonna do well.
gonna study.
hahas.i hope i really do it. not NATO.
which then means no action,talk only.
yeah alright.
shall go do some physics mcqs now.
tatass ppl.

<33x

yayy.its midnight.
and its thurs.
gonna go out with my tuition family ;DD
and not going for dnt.
STUPIDDDDDDDDDDISH.
cant believe im skipping dnt when im suppose to pass up SOONNN.
which is like end of june.haha
wth.
but i promised them.so i have to go.
this shows i keep my promises.
HAHA.thank u thank u.
bleahssss.
)))): ahhh shit.out of point.
oh well.wadevaaa.i somehow give up on dnt anyway.

today's dnt was totally BORINGGGGG.
ms ng didnt come today.
so i buffed, and buffed and buffed.
my goodness.
i think the white thingy is making my face itch lor!
sickening.
oh.buff halfway, went to bring my brother for lunch.
and mum and dad came and looked for us in limbang.
ahhhs.goody.no need to waste time.hahas.
then my GOOOODDDD friend chong jiasheng.
said something freaking loud.
-.-"" grrrrs.

oh well.
you noe, it wasnt my day yesterday(wedd).
great.i guess it was the worst day ever.
the worst memory between us.
shit.i dont know wad i was think lar.
i felt like banging the wall.but no walls except the air..
freak.im childish and petty.
whyyyy?
stupid pms?
perharps im emotional?
shitty shitty shitty.
and iloveyou isnt a difficult word wad.
i just cant spit it out properly.
urghs.im getting pissed at myself.
im just not a good girlfriend.
damn i suck larrr. )))):

alot of stuffs crossed my mind lately.
worst thing is negative thoughts.
its wrong.totally wrong.
i dont like ppl nagging abt wad kinda friends im going out,
wad kinda boyfriend im out with.
seriously, its totally pissing?
i cant survive like that.
i've always thought abt stopping everything.
and live my 'anti social' life.
but i just cant.
i cant stop hanging with my friends,
i cant just break with my guy when i seriously love him to bits.
i cant abide with wad u want with me.
ARGHHHH.

sighh.sometimes, its really hard.
hard to be a christian.
have to be good.
best friends have to be christians.
and sadly, i only have fen as my bestie.
jane and a few ppl as friends.
SCH PPL! omg.the ppl i need iin my life.totally.
wad else.
have to have boyfriends who are christians. wtf?!
even some 'christian' guys are worse lar. wtf.
i love darl and thats final.
nth's gonna change that.
like durh.i dont change my feelings like changing clothes.

caught in the middle i suppose.
see how difficult my life can get?
the stress in sch is already enough.
stress at home can kill me already.
i love life.
but not anymore..

Peace People.
Hahas.I sound like some alien speaking.
Ookay.wadeva.
Back to Post.

Hmm.went out with Kaibing yesterday.
HAHAS.
Was suppose to buy darl's present.
But..we walked from bugis to the bugis village.
From there, we took a train back to orchard.
Walked to paragon.then to heeren.
Then to taka and back to cck.
Hahas.
Shopping done in town was mostly on food lar.
We bought shepherd's pie.then had yoshinoya for lunch.
Then we walked and walked to paragon.
Had ice cream.*omg the ice cream was freaking awesome!
Low fat.but taste sweet as ever! hahas.coolies!
Then had the chicken from bugis street.
Ooo yum.piggish.but who cares! we skipped dinner anyway.
Bloated like balloons. lol

Time spent in town was like shit.
Walked around lots of shops but still found nothing.
On the edge of giving up.
HAHAS.
Crap.now billabong shirts are not nice at all lor.
I kinda liked the complicated ones.
Not simple simple kind.
And simple ones already cost 30 bucks plus. wtf?
Eat money larrr.
Flash and splash was like DOTS.
The shirts were alllll totally boring lar.
So ended up, coming back to lot1's billabong shop.
And bought other stuffs.
Hahas.sounds so last min eh? ;pp

Oh.studied on yewtee mac after that.
Busy day lar.
Studied for dunno how long..then i guess kaibing's attention span stopped.
So she asked xiaodi and fake jiefu to call and conference.
Then after that rebecca joined in.
Practically talked for like 2 hrs or so.
Hanged up less than an hr or so,
All called back sharply.
Wad man.they miss me or wad? HAHAHAS.
Oopps.yaaas.and we talked all the way till like 1am and stuffs.
From 11 by the way.so wasnt that bad lar.

Next morning!
Im here typing this.
Cos im gonna go to sch again for dnt.
How boring.
Issac and Joan asked me if i wanna go for a movie in ps.
FARRRRRR- and i dont think i wanna go anyway.
Ok.after dnt, its study time with tuition family ;DD
Hmmm.perharps spend time with darl before going off to study.
That should be better i suppose..
Well, think im going off soon.
To sch once again.
BORINGGGG! urghs.
kay.tatas

Well hey once again.
tiring.
yf on sat plus band concert.
omg.band totally rocked me ok.
it was soooo freaking awesome!
i felt so badd.
kenny was right.
they were gonna make me regret not joining.
and i did regret.hahas.
oh wells.they did me proud.really did (:
yesterday.
kids church.
was kinda okay lar.
not that bad after all.
then wanted to go home and rest.
but had no time.slept only for thirty mins.
then i went off to meet my cliques for bbq.
went to wenhao's condo.wowwww.
grand piano at home! so freaking jealous ):
hahas.then we played tennis.while the rest played monopoly.
nicee lehs.tho the balls fly out of compound.ahhas.
didnt help to bbq.neither did i help clean up.
eyer..i feel bad lar.
that time in east coast also like that.that was due to gastric.
yesterday was due to period.wah liao.always bad timing. urghs.
but was like a queen leh.hahas.was fed and served by kunhao.
kunhao is soooo nice lar.gd guy.hahahs.wenhao cant fight with him lar. LOL.
hmm.dad came to pick me up.
but before that, i was on the verge of breaking, not into tears but into embarassment. -.-
omg.why must like that..
yawns.but was dead tired after the whole thing lar.
yeahs.

hmms.
i dont understand why im feeling so irritated today.
perharps im pms-ing.
the pain was urghh. irritating.
so didnt continue buffering my acrylics.
sighhs.sucky feeling.
after that. the workshop closed at onepm.
went for lunch with koonhua jialong and hoikan.
blahblah.then kh saw them.
i just dont understand why i got that kinda feeling.
its not that i dont trust you lar darl.
its me.my own thinking and feeling.
not ur fault and stuff.
i just wanna stop bothering abt them.
but i just cant.
it was the same exact feeling i had on sat.
bloody.i hate it so much.i seriously hate it.
ahhhhhhs!

im tired.
still haven thought of wad to give him.
diffy lar.really difficult.
im vexed.
so vexedd.
gonna get some slp.
so till next time.
ciaos.

oh.and happy early birthday to joel benn.yinci.alicia.darll.koonhua and azhari! ;D

Hi, i guess im getting sick of blogging.
but oh well.here's one post.
hmm.the week..somehow was okay.
and maybe a lil sucky.
got real pissed today.
my brother made my com bonkers.
my mum's pissed.im pissed.
our stuffs are like ALL inside?
freaking poop.
and he still dare to say he did nth wrong.
URGHHHHHH-
pissedd.now im using my lappie.
laggy, but i've got no choice.

whole week was dnt dnt dnt.
its driving me crazy can.
urghs.i cant wait to finish EVERYTHING.
damn.

oh well.nothing much anyway.
ciao then

hahas.
im gonna try typing like a ahlian.
whee ehhees.this is gonna be funn.

ahem.
okays.here goes. ;D
wahhhhs.today shooo happie worrx!
did moii artefact worrhx!
finally gortts somethingg lerrxx.
shoo excitingggg lehhx.
wad crap.this ahlian thingy sucks.
anyway, thanks to hoikan, yenle and jialong.
my artefact is more..noticable?
hahas.as in its finally halfway through lar.

erm ya.as i said i did my artefact.
was abt to give up yesterday.
but something happened while i was throwing my temper.
so i made up my mind to continue doing.
sorryhon,formakingyoufeeldownbecauseofme.ireallyam):
well yeah.and madam! thank you soo much for helping me cut the wood and gluing it together while i was having classes ;DD

ahma made spag for lunch.
so i had that for dinner too.
now im bloatedd like crapp.
hohos.

okays.last day of 'schh' tmr.heh hehs.
no history! whee hehes.
then chem after recess.
hopefully there's dnt.
yeahs.
then got to go for church camp.
(: kinda excited.
but im really gonna miss darl.
three days aint gonna see him.
sighhs.
oh well.
there's band camp too.
think i wanna go join them for practices(:
hehs.
saw sir badrul and sir shai today.
i miss sir badrul!
was really glad that he did talked to me.
means not really angry with me after all.
hahahas.
alrite.gonna go now.tatass ;DD

horrid.
i think im having mood swings noww.
i feel like crying.
i hate this.
i suddenly hate lifee when im not suppose to..
but its just..mood.freakking mood swingss..

im tired of this school life.
i cant cope.
i hate dnt NOW.
i haven TOUCHED since i last stopped lar alrite.
sigh.
this isnt fabulous.
the wheels in my head are churning..
its driving me nuts.
slowly, im growing insane.
i hate my panda eyes.

going to malaysia on thurs nite.
perharps after tuition.or maybe i'll skip tuitionn.
i was yearning to go for church camp.
but i am not now.
dunno why.
i dont wanna share rooms with others.
i just dont like it.
i wanna chill.
im so tempted to go clubbing in MoS.
thats sooo outta point.
wadeva shitt.

now im pissed at my brother.
he's getting on my nerves every now and then.
tell you, its a pain in my arse alrite.
urghhhhh.
somehow, i hate home.
i hatee life.
this aint good.
im gonna go.
ciaos.
pardon me for my mad moody-ness.

farhan rocks my world ever since...1998 (:
my bud, u're the greatest.hahas.

sighs.sick since the day i came back from camp ):
well, but the camp was slightly enjoyable(:
at first it wasnt.
reporting to sch so early to rot.i think the kids arrived late thats why.
oh well.at first i was suppose to take hilda.
but she seems...i dunno.anti social perharps?
yeahs.then end up lina taking her.
me and yunru take sandy.
at first it was okay.
but until we went to ECP, hilda and sandy really pissed me off.
told them not to go to the beach, they dont wanna listen.
really dunno how to deal with them. esp hilda.
but after that, sandy became more obediant.
tactics.ahahhas.
then we talked alot.
her cousin is my brother's friend.
hahas.coolies!
oh well.gonna miss her.
she made me cry so much ):
sigh.oh wells.

watched full house.
love it ;D
heh hehs.
but my headache comes on and off.
irritates me.
so this two days i haven been watching.
cant wait anymore ):
hahas.and i haven been doing dnt.
hopefully i'll be better tmr.
then i can do my artefact.
hurry hurryyyyy.
i wanna be well.

oh well.
gonna go slp now.
tatas ((: