today is the ninth day of school..
you know, sometimes its really disheartening..
i mean, i've got no motivation to go to school.
i feel like im going for the sake of.. going!
sighhhs. its like, i have no aim in life alr.
i gave up my goal, i gave up my desires.
dont know whats wrong with me nowadays..
i just feel sooo odd in this world.
i miss friends whom i can relate to.
i dont remember crying my heart out to someone.
but i wish someone could be there for me.
the matter is, but who?
guy or girl, wadeva, i just needa shoulderrrrrr )):
sometimes, i really do get pissed off due to simple reasons.
i really dont know why, but its getting worse and worse.
*scratches headdddd!* this is absolutely fustrating! ):
can someone bring me out to face the world? im bored of being like that.
i feel sooo closed up nowadays...
my mood swings are coming so regularly now..
sighhs.
and i cant control it

okay.so its tuesday today, and this is the second day in school.
anyway, i missed church on sunday cos of the dance for orientation, my muscle pulled like madddddd can.so i couldnt walk.and yeah, i stayed at home ta stone (: felt so useless.wadeva..

anyway, yesterday i went to school alone.
my dad has courses on so he couldnt fetch me to school.
rahh! bad timing.so i walked extra slowly to sch yesterday. lol
and yeah, the module yesterday was boring la.communication skills.
but at least i gotta know emily,ridwan(ok i dont exactly rmb his name), huiyan and noelle(i keep calling her jieting.shoots la.so pai seh) but yeah, presentation was cool yesterday ;D

hmmms.today, we switched groups again.
okay no.we gotta switch grps like everyday.expect if we're facilitated by the same facilitator then we can go back to our own grps.
back to the topic, i was in team one (again ;D) this time, with emily(again), qianqi,colin and vanessa ;D okay.there's more talking between us today.
which is good! our facilitator was good too.so i kinda enjoyed today's module la.
talked more than yesterday.teehee ;D

& oh~! after school, i went to raffles city to look for xuan.cos mrs siow msged us to tell us that ben and jerry's are giving free ice cream! omg.i just had to go ;P anyway, johnathan is working there ;D we asked him to come for cottage meeting on sat! heehee.we gotta drag more ppl in.hahas. anyway we ate lots of ice cream can.sweet cookies and cream was my fav! it was oh-so-yummy! ;DD
then then, we went to tecman la..then we left (:

i gotta pray that everyday would be enjoyable! whee.okay.gotta zzz now.
good night! ;D

ouch..my muscles are aching so badly now ):
cant walk properly either.actually many of us last min joined the CIE dancers for presentation.
and so, we practiced like countless of times.
and maybe because of that, my shoulders and legs are aching like whoaaaa.
but its was fabulous! i mean, CIE WON can! second smallest school but hahahas.
WE WON!!!! wheeeeeeeeeeee*but almost of the CIE ONE peeps didnt go ): saddy..oh wells, we had our fun so monday its gonna be real ... (wads the word? hmms.)
I HATE PBL! everyday pbl, i'll dieeeeeeee la ):

aiya.im just gonna be soo bored on monday and tuesday and wed and ......u know la..haiya.irritating.
why cant they start class with our own coursemates?
why must be different? hais.siannnnn can.
oh well, im going off.YF later, dinner with lingli,lau and lina in fishandco
LOL i wonder how im gonna walk now.
tata!

hi.
well,school has officially started.
and i've not been enjoying myself during this two days.
i dont know why, although..yeah, CIEone a enjoyable grp to be in..
but i just feel so very weird.
my mood swang today again..
i felt anti social this round.
sighhs..i've no idea what's wrong with me lah.
this is crazy..
how long is this mood swing gonna last? i've been having it since last week.
urghhhs.soon or later, i wont be able to take it. esp when classes start on monday.and the way we study is totally weird.so im gonna hve difficulties coping with what im currently doing.

anyway,tmr's the last day of orientation.
should i go or should i not? im still hesitating..
i mean, jianquan is right, when we go, its like wasting time.
and i really feel weird when the student leaders are my age..
you get wad i mean? hais.i dont know la.
i feel like ramming my head against the wall...

urghs..
im feeling...
depressed ):

Ear Candy : Fei Ni Mo Shu by TANK

oh wow..lina's right..this song is definitely nicer than the one ariel lin sang! )): touching touching..
anyway! i got baptised today! ((: sighs..im happy.and i hope my life will change for the better to portray Christ in me! heehee.
well, school's gonna start in like 2 days time? including orientation that is.
should i feel excited or what? its a new step of life..whether i will be able to cope or not, its all by God's grace.
im so motivated to encourage other by writing to them now.heehee.hopefully it helps..cos i wouldnt know who's feeling down and stuffs..i hope God works through this way. ;p thats the least i can do? oh wells..
and oh, the easter musical was a blast! it worked out soo soo well! (: thank God..i was so worried abt the cast and choir.lost my voice but i managed to sing.heehee.and the cast didnt forget their lines, and i thought that choir sang beautifully on that day ;DD
and i brought my laptop to get it configured on thurs, then guess what,
its lagging so frigging badly!!!!!! im pissed ):
n its like my laptop is under the contro of RP now.
omgosh.then why call it MY LAPTOP?
its even lagging when im typing this! URGHHHHHHSSSSSSS-
nvr go to republic okay..
i'll tell you when the school really puts a good impresson on me.
RAHHS!
hais..im having a tweeny lil bit of moodswing this few days.
dont know why..maybe they call it the school blues.
hahas..dont know la.
im agitated easily now. ):
sighhhs..

*waves*
hey hey.
im losing my voice alr..
relief twice, shouted twice.
this time, my voice got worst la.
and i've gotta sing on friday and sunday can!
)))):
im so sad..now i cant even sing properly.i'll croak.
anyway, i really cant wait for school to start! omgawd.im so excited ;DD
then then, SYF! i really hope i can go..but i cant ):
sighhs.my orientation is on that day itself lo.
geeeeee.but kenny says he'll call me and let me hear the results!
omgawd..im so scared that i'll cry =S

wadeva..was on the phone with xuan for like..3hrs?
oh man...i cant believe cos i HARDLY chat like so long on the line can.
but well, our chat was wahwhee! (:
and i realised some of our interests is exactly the same!
even our reactions.LOL
interesting (((:
and and! there's gonna be a sleepover in chris's hse.
or maybe mine..hmm.i dont know la.gotta ask my parents.heehee.
then we can like.. GIRL TALK! get it? ;PPP
hmm.but i was glad i told lekxuan which i bottled up for like..kinda long time.
phew..its like, a burden lifted up!
*happy happy* (:

okayy la..im coughing real badly, and my throat hurts ):
and i ate curry just now, and my stomach is burning.
owwww..