How should we live then?

Sigh.
Everythings seems wrong now and I dont understand why..

My life seems so wrong, it isn't how I want it to be.
Today during service, everything seems realistic to me.
"Be not anxious" for what?
Well, practically everything!

I'm worried about my life. Whether I'd be surviving in RP, whether my life is worthy for Thee, whether things I'd be doing is right etc etc!
I mean, I'm anxious about what tmr may bring. But today's verse, Mt6:34, "Take therefore no thought for the morrow: for the morrow shall take taje thought for the things of itself. Sufficient unto this day is the evil thereof."
this is so true. Why worry? Only God knows what tomorrow maybe bring..

Today is the last choir practice for the kids and I'm anxious. What I feel is that, the kids are not prepared at all and I don't know if I'm prepared myself. And because the kids are too close with us, they get out of hand. Eventually this would cause problems between me and HER. Sigh, seriously, I don't know how to handle the actually day. I'm scared. But I only know that all I need to do is leave it to God and let him work miracles.

And for SS today, Psalms1:2 "But his delight is in the law of the Lord: and in his law doth he meditate day and night." When was the last time I actually did my quiet time again?! Yeah, I've been dreamily slipping away. Perhaps thats the reason why I haven been sleeping well.. And I'm really sad about the 22 koreans who were captured. I nearly cried when we prayed for them. Innocent lives being taken by bloody talibans, what position are they to take away lives like that?! I pray that God would deliver them out of this situation.

Sigh, this word is getting out of hand. I read Xiaxue's archives. Concerning fellow christians whom she really really criticize. Why let one bad example of a christian be a stumbling block? I was quite pissed at what she wrote lah. Christianity is not a religion, its a relationship between God and you.

Does your God exist? Who do you actually believe in? When you talk to your own gods, do they ever respond? Do they really understand, or rather, do they really hear your prayers?
Well, My God does. Don't ask me to show you where God is because my God is everywhere. He holds the entire galaxy! Have you ever wondered how the earth actually hangs in space? I guess not. Urgh, Xiaxue, you should open your brains and think.

Anyway, I'm frustrated with myself, for not being able to be a better Christian, for being an ass in everything. I do stupid things without thinking. And I feel like a piece of shit now. Seriously, I can't control my feelings lah..
What I'm feeling now can't be described in words. Even if I try, it'd be like that "dfakgfbhsfdglasbgshjg" Yep, thats how.

Sighh, when is life gonna be over?
How am I suppose to live my life then?
Questions yet to be answered.....

Morning Light.

Don't go away, say you'll stay
and tell the morning light not to fade away into grey..







Okay hello. More than one week passed already or whatttt :)


Seriously, I don't wanna change class ): I wanna stick with W45K mann.. & some of them are gonna change school, omgosh, I'm like.. sad okay.
I've said that I don't like RP, I'm serious with that, but for my class? My gosh, I love them! Without them, I 'd be such a loner in school and I'd probably be depressed every day okay.
Sigh, stupid school does things differently lah.
Hopefully the new class is as nice as W45K.

Sigh
And I'm bored of blogging.
There's nothing to blog about!
Alissa, maybe you can give me a topic to write about.
HAHA :D

Friends with love :)

Ah, guess what.

My girlfriend bought donuts from the freaking donut factory which you've gonna queue like freaking long to buy it. Well, not the mouth watering donuts on the picture though.

But thanks anyway, darling! :D LOL (disgusting)

Anyway, I seriously feel that my previous post isn't meant to shoot people. Its my thoughts and feelings which I really can't stand anymore, thus blogging it out yo.

Today is the "slackiest" (if there's ever a word like this) time of my life in RP man. My goodness, I practically stoned for like 30-1hr alright, and that is not freaking normal. Had only 9 freaking slides in total yo. Cafe Galilee is a nice place to slack and play pool yo. I like it.

Anyway, Its July already. Like wow, time flies like ... whoa. Seriously, I really hope that this year will totally end fast like a snap of the fingers man. Really can't stand the crazy fixed routine in RP. And I'll be changing class like the next freaking sem! Zomg, I really don't wanna change alright. I bet the whole year ones won't want to change class, but I guess the stupid school wants to change. But what can we do about it? Cry loh -.-

Read Fen's comment on friendster ytd night, and I realised I miss everything about her. Those times we mugged, sat in the library flipping through mags, tearing EVERY SINGLE picture which has DANIEL RADCLIFFE on it, (okay, I know im bloody evil, but! I was young and innocent! LMAO), watching movies like almost everyday, doodling, writing letters to each other, shopping etc etc, If I try to think back, I don't even remember how I got so close to thi crazy girl. Haha. She was practically like.. my sister yo. And she's taking O's this year because she retained. Was partially my fault cause' when we were suppose to go home and mug after one exam, we went for movies. This resulted in her failing. I failed too, but I can't remember why that crazy "Moronic Lee" allowed me to be promoted. Crazy Fen wrote me a letter telling me how much she loved the times we spent and that we couldn't spend as much time as we used to cause' we're gonna be separted. My goodness, I wrote back saying that we'll be close as ever but nahh, we drifted like crap and she had her own clique and I had my own. Seriously, I'm still missing this sister like hell. Oh well, thank God that this is her last year in Kranji! :D Go sister! You can do it! :D

Ever since young, I've always considered friends as the best thing I'd ever receive. Haha, I mean, who will disagree with me man? Unless you're some anti-social human which survives going home after school and having no close friends to talk too.

Friends are treasures that you can keep for life. Well, it isn't when you finally die, cause you can't bring them to heaven/hell with you. Haha, kidding about the heaven and hell part. But yo, My mum never fails to say this " Your friends are more important than your family is it?" Too think about it.. My answer is maybe.. Hmmmmmm, okay, for me, I'd say both are equally important. But mixing with the good company of friends benefits you lah. But for bad company? Hmm, I think they seriously treat each other really really good. They consider themselves brother/sisters. Helping you whenever you have problems and stuffs. Positive yo. But negative? Would you still consider them as your brothers/sisters IF they influence you to do something illegal? Probably stealing, smoking, blah blah blah.. I think all this spoils your life. If they really do consider you as brothers/sisters, they'll never bring harm upon one's body/health yeah?

I have friends who smoke, but they never ever asked me if I wanted one. Haha, awesome or whattt? :) I've good and rather 'bad' companys of friends. And I'd try hard not to get influenced by them and stuffs. I love my friends and I'd never want to see them spoiling their life puffing away and stuff. Sigh, its really hard to convince them not to smoke because, those who actually smoke lives longer than a non-smoker. Hahahas, I don't understand this stupid logic but its true. Google 'smoking' and find it out yourselves man.

Church friends are well, much closer to me. Majority of my time, I'd spend with them. They're just like family! They know me, so I'd just be my normal self and I'd be a tini weeni crazy around them. They're probably the best that God gave me. Hahahas, seriously. I don't mind spending my time with them man. We talk about almost everything under the moon,stars and even the sun :D

Alright, I feel like I'm writing an essay. Lol!

I like writing essays. But wait, I'm not a geek lah okay.

I speak like a retarded person, LOL :D

And goodness, I still wanna go SHOPPING.

&& watch Transformers and my darling Harry Potter.

Heheh, right, this is random.

Well its 11pm now and I've got science test tmr. Darn..

High dislikes for UTs mann.

Ciao yo.

One Life, Live It, Use It Properly

Peekaboo!
My blog skin is back to the simple one :D
I'm super bored tonight, so I thought of blogging. Hehehs,
Have you ever wonder how much privacy in your life do you want to have? Okay, how about rating it, 1-10? 1 for "Its okay what, I don't mind", & 10, "Mind your own business you busybodies!"

For me? I'd probably chose 7-8 larh, to be nice. I mean, I'm find if people get to know what I do everyday, where I go blah blah blah, But seriously, can't I get some privacy of my own life please?

It's really weird when me and my girlfriends go out for a drink (Okay, coffee) & of cause there will be pictures uploaded an stuffs right? I mean, which girl doesn't like to take a shot with their girlfriends? Hahahas, I don't know about you, but I do. Anyway, I'd tend to upload pictures and post them on friendster/MSN as Display Pictures. But sometimes it really irritates me when suddenly there's this personal message which annoys me. For example, If my girls and I go out for... let's say dinner at a expensive restaurant. Pictures taken, uploaded, etc etc and then you see this message which says "How rich can you get? A meal cost like freaking crap!"

Maybe I'm thinking too much and maybe the message wasn't meant for us? But sorry, I feel like using this word, WTS!!! I'm rather pissed/irritated by this freaking comment, seriously. IF, this WAS meant for us, I'm totally... speechless? NOO! I'VE GOT FREAKING MUCH TO SAY!
Isn't my life MYLIFE? I mean, what does that gotta do with some people? Care, Concern?? I don't really think so.

IF it isn't meant for us, I've got this to say. I'm a sensitive person. Very sensitive yo,
Oh, not forgetting that I'm easily irritate by stupid and senseless comments made by people who know nuts about what the situation is about.
I've encounter that problem like once? And I can tell you, I'm so freaking pissed.
Seriously, I've never seen such a childish person ever.
Please talk to the person who knows the situation best for more infomation before you draw conclusions about something which concerns others. And worst, drawing the WRONG conclusions.

Sigh, I need a LIFE.
I don't want my LIFE to be commented yo.
Excluding God & my family,
The rest, you can just bow and take your leave (:

Right,
Ciaos.

Who needs the world when I've got you?

Hahahas, right random :P

Brother came to talk to me just now.

And I didn't realise I miss him so!

Lol, Army has got him so busy that I can't see him for like.. 3 weeks alr?

And he's going to Taiwan like.. soon.

But! His birthday is coming!!

Just need to get him something, hahas :D

Okay, i've not written posts in different colours ever since.. last year?

Lol, today im gonna try it out again.

Hehehehs.

Anyway, it seems like there's alot of thins lining up for me to do.

Every single week, there's sure to be things to do/go for/

Busy or whatttttt :P

& Jonathan is leaving on 15th Aug for States!! )))):

And there's hell lot of birthdays in Aug lah.

Aug... then Sept!

Omgosh, My turn to turn 18 soonnn!!!!

Hehehehes,

Ah, this is boring.

I'm gonna go.

Ciaos!

Ahhhh!
Omg, im so freaking excited because my dear Harry Potter is coming out sooonnnn!
I know, i know he doesn't look cute as he used to..
But when you're in love, your lover will always look cute.
Isn't it?? HAHAHAHAHAS.
OMG, im embarassing myself.
So, i still haven caught Transformers YET, fine, call me slow
But i'm gonna watch it sooonnn! Like real soon okay.

Okay, so many things and events happened that i'm so freaking lazy to talk about it.
So yes, *flips hand*
Next please! :D

Well, this has so far been a busy week.
I bet next week will be as busy as ever again.
AHHH! schedules pleaseeeee!

Tell you, i still hate school okay.
Now i have to walk to school every single day.
urghs, sucks.
Right, im like damn tired now.
Goodnight,

hey yo!
i'm bored, so bored that i don't know what to blog about.
hahahas,
bored bored boredddd.