oh wow, its 1.51AM NOW.
i didnt know because i was play auditions =/
okay i kena influenced lah okay. hahahahaha.
anyway, thanks girls.. for the tags (:

sigh.. i feel like cooping up.
i feel like withdrawing myself from the world,
and get myself stuck at home instead..
watched enchanted ytd..
& i want to be the girl in that fairytale.
who lives in a hollow tree and her only friends are animals who can talk.
to avoid the problems in the world,
and live happily ever after with my animal friends (:
wow, what a dream which can never ever happen.

you cant trust anyone,
you cant rely on anyone..
sigh, i dont know.
this is how i see the world.
i definitely have no life..
but i think i rather enjoy a simple life.
be clueless about everything bad.
wouldn't life be wonderful?
well, okay.
maybe not to many..

this question "what is life"
has been popping out now and then.
and i'm rather sad to hear about the dragonboaters.
such young innocent lives..
not to mention Reuben who is extremely talented and i love his piano pieces,
which in fact, i think he composed it himself!
sigh, seems like life is tooo fragile.
and i worry,
there's so much things going on in phillipines now..
and the first batch of youths will be going this sat.
and my batch, next week.
thoughts were running through my mind.
i mean, what if I ended up like Reuben?
who ended his blog post in such a sad way..
i had a feeling that he had a bad hunch of what was going to happen just by reading his blog.
but who knew that it affected him instead...

to be honest, im scared.
im scared about a disaster which will eventually hit us.
im scared about a tsunami which i dread the most.
im scared about bombings and earthquakes.
sigh.. now i know why the elders didn't quite agree to this mission trip.
i dont know... im feeling so.. weird.
thinking of things which MIGHT not happen..
and the consquences. wow..

well.. please keep us in your prayers.
im still scared =/
i hope i dont have nightmares tonight.
ciaos.

get tipsy :D

today, was a rather bad day for me.
i felt so dam down..
i talked to emily, but to no avail.
sighs.. i felt like skipping class today luh..
my mood was really really bad today.
i felt so petty because of what faiz said.
but i just couldn't help it. i already tried to contain it.
i know faiz didn't mean it, but aiya... ):
so i disappeared from class first to go chill somewhere. alone.
ordered something to munch and calm down.
but faiz kept msging me to apologize and ronnie and him called me but i refused to answer.
dam, i felt so depressed that i cried. i know, siao right.
but what, i cant help it lah.. sorry guys. i needed some time alone..
yeah, went back to class after i've calmed down.
and walah! i saw faiz in the library. =/ i didnt know how to react. i just kept quiet..
seriously, i think i've changed. i've changed....
oh wells.. everything went well in class loh..

afer school, was supposed to go for seminar in church. but ah, change of plans.
went to BK for dinner with farhana, xiaojing, ronnie and faiz.. and then proceeded down esplanade without faiz because he went home instead.. yeah. we laughed so damn much in the bus playing mind games :P xiaojing was super funny. anyway, photos are at the bottom. so yeah. ronnie paid for it :D yayyyy, and i only had a few sips and i was burning hot. i thought i was gonna peng because my heartbeat was damn fast. =/ yes yes im a light drinker :( but the three of them were like, normal lah. no kick to them. eeekk, im like so lao ya.

aiyo, anyway, tmr is computing -.- wow, good for me. zzz.
im dam tired now. and my stomach hurts. shooooooots. maybe i cant drink lah.
hahahhahahas. whatever.
good nights. zzzzzzz

muahahahhahahahhaaaaa

wake me up when its over.

was damn tired today,
went to school late,
bad mood today,
wong pissed me off,
and i pon class with a few others.
HA, TAKE THAT FOR PISSING US.
came home and slept immediately.
proves how damn tired i was.
sigh, daniel, thanks for that message.
i really needed that alot. thanks (:
& awesomely, i forgot to go for the meeting today.
damn, but i think it isn't that important because im going on the holiday week..
err, HOPEFULLY! will ask charlene later about the details. hehes easy way out :P
im trying to find my childhood friend in facebook ad friendster!
but i simply just can't find him ):
DANIEL TOH, WHERE IN THE WORLD ARE YOU?!
): dont you even remember me. Seewan still does. what about you! :P

anyway,
i feel weird.
why did my heart did a sudden float when i saw you trying to wave to me when you were blocked? hahas,
okay, i need to think properly.
that doesn't mean anything right?
right. okay.
hmmmm..
& i think i've changed.
im more aware about things now.
as in.. i've become more sensitive to things.
shit, i dont like this.
urghs, but i cant help feeling this way.
right now, im feeling abit anti social.
and i dont really like to talk to people now.
rahhhh! i need to chill i need to chill!
Korkor! help me please ):
emily/zoe, ask me out to chill please ):

feeling down. and there's nothing that can cheer me up now.
maybe.. there's something.
but it is just fat hopes and dreams..

OMGOSH, TODAY IS SUCH A TIRING DAY!
NEARLY SLEPT DURING SERVICE ):
HAD REHEARSALS AGAIN. RATHER FRUITFUL :D
ER, KORKOR TREATED US MCFLURRY TODAY! WHEEE!
YES, I GOT TEMPTED ): FATSFATSFATS.
THEN I WENT FOR CHALET IN CHANGI.
AND HAD DINNER! BECAUSE WE PAID 15 BUCKS!
SO THE GIRLS WERE THE ONES EATING AND EATING.
STUPI GUYS HAD ONLY ONE SERVING AND THEY SAY THEY ARE ON DIET.
-.- WEIRDDDDD!!!
PLAYED Wii FOR AWHILE THEN I WENT TO CHAT WITH ZUL, NORIMAN, JIASHENG, AZHARI AND HIS GIRLFRIEND (:

CHONG JIASHENG SPENT MOST OF THE TIME STARING INTO THE MIRROR BECAUSE HE WANTS TO BE BUFF.
AH CHONG AH, YOU'RE REALLY GOOOOOOD ENOUGH LIAO. DONT TORTURE YOURSELF TOO MUCH. HAHAHA!
& YOU'RE NOT UGLY ALSO LAH. JUST WAIT FOR THE RIGHT PERSON TO COME.
SERIOUSLY, ALL THE GIRLFRIENDS YOU HAVE ARE SO MEAN TO YOU! =/
SO, PATIENCE YA JIASHENG :D

OH, WE CABBED HOME AT 12AM.
WE WAITED FOR STUPID CABS FOR DAMN LONG PLEASE.
WE WANTED TO CALL FOR THE 7 SEATER BUT AH, ALL BOOKED ):
SO DAVID, LEWIS AND ME TOOK THE CAB TO CCK FIRST.
WOW, I WAS HOME BY 12.30AM.
SHIT, I HATE COMING HOME LATE BECAUSE I DONT FEEL COMFORTABLE AND IM DAMN TIRED.

SPEAKING OF WHICH,
I SHALL SLEEP NOW.
NIGHTS!

I AM VERY TIREDDDDD!!!!! )))):
I LEFT HOME PUNCTUALLY FOR REHEARSALS TODAY.
BUT I WAS TOLD IT WAS FULL DRESS.
SO I WENT HOME WITH 60 OTAHS OKAY.
AND THEN AARON AND CAROL CAME TO PICK ME.
HAHAS, WE WERE LATE FOR REHEARSALS. LIKE.. 50 MINS LATE OR SOMETHING =/

BUT I DIDNT HAVE THE MOOD TO ACT BEFORE DINNER BECAUSE I WAS STARVING!
I DIDNT HAVE BREAKFAST AND LUNCH OKAY. SO CANNOT CALL ME PIG.
NOT COUNTED. LALALALA.
AIYA, BUT I WAS ENERGIZED AFTER I ATE. YAY.
SINGING SUCKS ): I WENT RATHER OFF =/
OVERALL, GOOD GOOD. I MANAGE TO SOMEHOW STUFF MY LINES IN MY HEAD.
TMR GOT REHEARSALS AGAIN! ):
BUT ITS FOR 1 HOUR WHICH IS RATHER OKAY LAH...

OKAY, IM SERIOUSLY WORN OUT TODAY.
GOOD NIGHT.
):

REHEARSALS TODAY.
AND I DONT THINK I CAN REMEMBER MY LINES.
DIE. HELP ME.
CONTACT LENS TMR. :)
SLEEPY SLEEPY.

shutup&drive.

IM DAM TIRED.

AND IM RATHER .. PISSED OFF TODAY.

SERIOUSLY, YOU PEOPLE NEED TO BE SENSITIVE TO MY FEELINGS.
ITS FINE WITH ME BECAUSE I DO ADMIT IT.

BUT DONT NEED TO REPEAT SO MANY TIMES LAH CAN.

I'M STILL HUMAN AND I HAVE FEELINGS PLEASE.

URGH, FEEL DAM SICK NOW.

HORRIBLE STOMACHACHE.

PUKING THE STUFFS OUT MAKES ME FEEL BETTER NOW.

DAMN.

彩虹 :)

哪里有彩虹告诉我
能不能把我的愿望还给我

为什么天这么安静
所有的云都跑到我这里

有没有口罩一个给我
释怀说了太多就成真不了
也许时间是一种解药
也是我现在正服下的毒药
看不见你的笑我怎么睡得着
你的声音这么近我却抱不到
没有地球太阳还是会绕
没有理由我也能自己走
你要离开 我知道很简单
你说依赖 是我们的阻碍
就算放开 但能不能别没收我的爱
当作我最后才明白

有没有口罩一个给我
释怀说了太多就成真不了
也许时间是一种解药
也是我现在正服下的毒药
看不见你的笑 我怎么睡得着
你的声音这么近我却抱不到
没有地球太阳还是会绕
没有理由我也能自己走
你要离开 我知道很简单
你说依赖 是我们的阻碍
就算放开 但能不能别没收我的爱
当作我最后才明白

看不见你的笑 要我怎么睡得着
你的声音这么近我却抱不到
没有地球太阳还是会绕, 会绕
没有理由我也能自己走掉
释怀说了太多就成真不了
也许时间是一种解药,解药
也是我现在正服下的毒药
你要离开 我知道很简单
你说依赖 是我们的阻碍
就算放开 但能不能别没收我的爱
当作我最后才明白..

Wooooots! :D:D:D:D
We took this before the shakespeare's play!

MUAHAHAHHAS.

Anyway, Happy Birthday Ronnie Liew Chin Fong, you ass.

HAHAHAHHAS, =/

YAY GOING BOWLING TMR WITH CLASS!

Awesome or what?!
But stupid SUI! emailed me and told me that I have workshop tmr till 6pm!

Kanna sai lah. But Faiz will wait for me and we'll take a cab down to Yishun.

Wooots! CAB SIA!

So excited! Tmr's gonna be soooo fun :D
Except the part where there's UT tmr -.-

Enterprise somemore. I can't flunk ANY of it leh.
Gonna skip one UT ):

Can't wait for Dec holidays!

My class has planned to go out,
and we DIEDIE also must go out during the holidays.

Righhttttt??? :D:D:D:D

Oh well, have alot of things in mind these few days.
Most irrelevant stuffs which I always worry about.

Sigh, I hate being me.

Okay, shan't spoil my mood for tmr.

And I've yet to complete my 樱野3加1 :D
AND AND, I LOVEEEE MINGDAO WHEN HE SMILES (((:

SO CHARMING PLEASE!

hehehhehehs

i did loved you but you never knew.
or rather, you didn't bother to feel it.
nia man.

YOU GOT SERVED.

kannasai, my face damn round. urghs.

basket -.-
&donut factory in novena sucks please.
i hate that place. i'll only go when i have no choice but to purchase donuts from there.
nia man, horrible customer service. -middlefinger- LOL, okay kidding bout' the middlefinger.
anyway, went to fish and co ytd with lina and laulau.
it was good. good to talk crap and catch up with each other
joshua looks good when he smilees. HAHAHAS =X
saw phyo ytd and anne and cindy and bong and rochelle.
<3 i love this people. they are so nice!
had some peri catch, or whatever the name is.
er, but it was nice. the fish was delicious!
and bong gave hell lots of prawn for the seafood platter.
btw, we couldnt finish it all.
hahahas, seriously, i feel like working again.
but it wasnt worth because its 5 bucks per hour and its so far ):
quite sad right.. sigh.
I NEED THE MONEY. meow.
anyway, i do miss raymond ):
and im rather upset about his condition now.
i cant.. accept the fact.
sigh ...
i hope korkor will get well soon.
he must ):

Unmistakable.

Anytime, anywhere, anyplace
You could be anyone today
Maybe I would recognize you
On a crowded street
Maybe you'll take me by surprise
Will you be the one I had in mind

There'll come a day
When you'll walk out of my dreams
Face to face
Like I'm imagining
Baby how can I be sure
That you're the one I'm waiting for
Will you be unmistakable
Unmistakable..

People say we're watching our lives
Through a glass
Desperately waiting on a chance
I know you're out there
Holding on, holding out for me
How are we to know the time is right
What if you're here and I'm just blind

How can I know a song I never heard
How will I know your voice
When you haven't said a word
How do I know how this will end
Before we begin,
Beore we begin

There'll come a day
When you walk out of my dreams
Face to face
Like I'm imagining
Baby, how can I be sure
That you're the one I'm waiting for
Will you be;
Will you be
Unmistakable
Unmistakable..

tell me whats going on because I have absolutely no idea.
so what is happening now? why the looking and dam short talks?
if this continues, I rather not see you again.
but, shit. I'll see you a couple of times..
how, or maybe i shan't talk to you.
yes, i won't talk to you.
unless it is for important reasons.
ahhhh! you're a pest!
you're driving me insane!
you sickening shit.
i hate you.

Finally got my sneakers from US!
Muahahas, thanks to Khengling for ordering it for me :D
NEW SHOES NEW SHOES!
And I need flats, just in case I need to go relief again.
And dah.. heels, for the purpose of matching clothes. okay, wth :P


Okay, things to buy! regardless of buying in s'pore or phillipines.
1. CLOTHES (hmmm, dresses(?), teees, pants (for dance next yr HAHA).)
2. Heels & flats. Dont need to get sneakers liao! woots!
3. Bag! my poor white bag is gonna soon or later ): with all the heavy stuffs i carry.
4. CAMERA. goodness, I'm soo upset about my camera because it doesn't take good photos and I enjoy taking pictures wherever I go. I'm rather artistic you know. HAHAHAHA
5. Phone? maybe. i regret selling off the samsung cos this nokia is giving me problems! irritating.
6. My morgan love perfume. It's finishing soon! and I don't bear to use it unless I'm going out for a date or something. But, I don't get dates with the guy i LIKE, so i hardly use it. MUAHA.
7. GAMES! family games :D :D
Wow, I really need to save up for now.
Anyway, I'm really excited about next year because I'll be able to FINALLY take my basic theory for driving! woots! But I think I'm slower than some other people ): Oh wells..
Then I'll be in second year next year! EH SO FAST HOR.
hahahas, I'm really excited lah.
I cant wait to grow up.. I think? =/

Okay, I'm going.
School starts again tmr.
SIAN.

Stop&Stare

I have absolutely no idea what the heck is wrong with the connection, or rather, with my laptop. It has been irritating me the past few days now. Rawr!


Anyway, did relief teaching again and seriously, I think I do love teaching kids.
My mum tells me that Hansen is a problematic kid because he throws his temper in my mum's class and he'll run out of class, but he doesn't give me problems at all and I think he's a really nice kid. Just need a little attention from me, & I think he'll be okay. Anyway, I like him! (: Seriously, the girls that I relief hardly talk to me, but they do draw me stuffs and some girl gave me a cute blue piggy! So happy :D:D:D:D
But, I prefer the boys because they ask funny questions and they entertain me :D maybe I'm just bias lah. But serious lah.. my P2, P4 & P5 boys are really good. Except when they start making noise & I have to REALLY shout. My brother's friends are really sweet :D especially Xingyuan, Wayne and ZhenJie. Poor Wayne sprained his ankle during a basketball match ): I hope he's fine and he doesn't blame Xingyuan for it ):


Ahhhh, You know, I've got a plan when I graduate.
Firstly, I'm thinking of going to NIE when I finish poly..
Secondly, UNI if possible
Thirdly, apply for Human Resource in SAF.
Fourth, Early Childhood education..
HAHAHAHHAHAS, IM PLANNING ALREADY!
But of course, like what all christians does,
We just leave it to God to see where we'll end up (:
But well.. Hopefully its one of the options lah.. hehes.


Ah shit.
I will continue blogging tmr.
I need to shit. Had TWO CARAMEL FRAPS IN A DAY.
IM GONNA SHIT. BYE

(:

My dear girl, Noelle hardly likes her pictures to be unglam-ed.

But this time round, this silly girl wants to pose like this.

No matter how silly she is, I'll still love her cos she loves me too! :)

Okay, this is when my pretty girl isn't unglam :P
And yeah, I'm still upset about Jeron.
I still understand why he hardly talks to me now.
But I can see that he looks at me from the corner of my eye
And when I look over, he looks away.
Sigh, I'm seriously sad.
He's my favourite boy ):

Yeah, yeah, I know you missed me.
HAHAHAH, ESPECIALLY EMILY CHANG.
RIGHT RIGHT RIGHT?? :p
I know you missed my capoaria (how to spell sia?!)
HAHAHAS, WTH.
And you better come for the christmas musical.
I'm gonna give you a flyer with my face plastered on it.
I know you'll like it lah right.
My face lehs. HAHAHAHAS.
Okay, stop laughing, emily chang. I know you are :D

Anyway, I'm happy because its the holidays!
Well, just for a week, but its better than none at all!
So yeah, I've got no plans tmr
So I guess I'll practically stone at home and stuffs.
What a sad life ):
But I should be msg-ing the driving instructor about the lessons tmr.
Can't drag any longer. Hehe.
And yes, I think I'll be taking private :)

What else..
Sunday's gonna be a busy day.
& I will definitely lose my voice.
Sigh, I feel that this year pass super fast.
Year one flies like damn fast please -.-
And I can't believe my express friends especially the guys will be going for NS.
I feel lousy.. When I'm in second year, my express friends, the girls will be in Uni.
I'm like so far from them ):
Wah, thinking more about it,
I feel old.
Eeeek.

Ahh crap.
I feel sleepy now.
So goodnight!
I shall zzz now.
Have fun during the weeeeek!